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Tomorrow is my final speech for public speaking

UUUUUUUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still have four finals and a paper to write after that, but I’m going to end up treating tomorrow like my last day of the semester.  I had the worst professor for this class that shouldn’t have been a burden on me and my gpa.  And my happiness goes beyond words that public speaking hell is over tomorrow.

I hate him!!!

He goes to Brooklyn and I think he’s out of my hair, but no!  He persists!

I hate and I love; wherefore I cannot tell, but my tortures know the fact too well.

Que voy a hacer, je ne sais pas. Que voy a hacer, je ne sais plus.

reasons why i'm single.

Same! grr

deadpoetry:

- when a guy likes me, i dont like him. when he stops liking me, i like him

- i tend to fall in love with my —— ———- (too afraid to even post it)

'09.

deadpoetry:

thedarlingchild:laurencephilomene:missbrill:hazelweatherfield:allknots:wolfbearwolfbear:

1.What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
So many things.  I can’t even count how many things.  Basically, I’ve become a very adventurous person.  
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No.  But I have several for next year, and I think I will keep them.
3.Did anyone close to you give birth?
no
4.Did anyone close to you die?
no.
5.What countries did you visit?
Spain, Portugal, and Canada
6.What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
I don’t know.  Everything else I didn’t have!!!  But you know what, I hope I will have more courage than I started out with this year in 2010.  
7.What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
November 23rd, 2009- I told him I was going away and that it was over and I couldn’t take anymore.  June 30th- I left for Spain.  Best days of my life.  April 22nd- I had the worst birthday of my life.  I’m still upset about it.  January 1st, 2009- I was positive that everything between us was going to be alright.  And it wasn’t.

8.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting into Cornell.  
9. What was your biggest failure?
Allowing myself to be hurt so much by him.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes, I did.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
A plane ticket.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My own.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
his
14. Where did most of your money go?
el viaje
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
transferring.  and being in Spain.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009? Tonight’s gonna be a good night Black Eyed Peas…not because I like that kind of music, but just because in Spain I have the best memories of my friends and I dancing like crazy to it, totally boracho, in clubs every single night.  We lived that fucking song up.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder? I think I’m happier.  I think I liberated myself a lot more.
b) thinner or fatter? same
c) richer or poorer? about the same

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
more being on my own and being happy I was single!
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
hoping and desiring
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
home.  
21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I did.  What a waste.
22. How many one-night stands?
shit, so many.  like you really don’t even want to know.  At least 5 in Spain. hahahah I’m awesome, I don’t care how slutty that sounds, I was the fucking man this year in terms of getting what I wanted.  Except I didn’t get the one I really wanted.  Ironyyy.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
True Blood
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
mmm nope.  I hated him then too.
25. What was the best book you read?
I really loved “In a Sunburned Country” by Bryson
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
ooh…I think the Duke Spirit maybe.  
27. What did you want and get?
The time of my life.
28. What did you want and not get?
The love of my life.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
God, I really don’t know.  Mostly Spanish films.  Like I loved Mancora.  I really don’t know.  
30. What did you do on your birthday?
Nothing.  I sat at home, alone, without friends or family or a cake or presents.  It was horrid.
31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If he would have been normal.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
College.  The end hahah.
33. What kept you sane? haha, considering I definitely went crazy….nothing.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
um…none? haha
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
SO SO SO SO many.  I can’t get into it.
36. Who did you miss?
My friends from Spain and Brazil and Canada. 
37. Who was the best new person you met?
Oh jesus, so many.  Manuel, Mariña, Igor, Edgar, Fernanda, Vinny, Dan, Mila, Jose, Avi, Jonathan, Mihan, Chris, Nico, Matt, Simone, Tarso…I can go on and on.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Live for yourself and fuck the rest.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I don’t know, I can’t think.

Does this make me a bitch?

No, I think you’re definitely justified in declining.  I would have declined as well.

colormelauren:

Ok so in the bathroom on my floor, the soap is currently in a terrible state of disarray. The dispenser has been taken apart and the bag is just kind of laying there with no way to actually secrete soap. Usually I just kind of wash my hands with water and then use hand sanitzer once I get into my room. Just before I went to the bathroom and I was gonna do my thing and there was a girl next to me. She had clearly just gotten out of the shower. She offered me some of her bar soap. I politely declined saying, “no, thank you.”

Does that make me a bitch. The idea of bar soap skeezes me out way more than walking a couple extra steps back to my room where I have hand sanitizer. She was just being nice but I don’t know. Like who knows what people do with bar soap. One thing’s for sure, that they touch it with their dirty hands. In my mind making it basically useless. And she just got out of the shower. What if that was her shower soap? Some people rub their shower soap over their entire body.

It’s not that I’m germophobic or anything. I just don’t like bar soap. But I feel bad for saying no anyway. She was just trying to be nice.